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Monday, February 2nd, 2009
8:03 am - Snow
Wow, I don't think I've seen this much snow in London in the 5 and a half years I've lived here, combined! And seemingly it just keeps on going as well, with no signs of stopping whatsoever.

Sadly, the Central line is one of the few ones that's not at least part suspended, but only suffering from severe delays, so I suppose I shall have to get ready and trudge my way into Central, where undoubtedly it'll be much less pretty what with cars having driven all over the snow numerous times. Ah well, can't have everything, I suppose?

How've you been, guys? I have been reading LJ, but failed at keeping up with IJ at the same time and not really been up to much posting as of late, what with my mood having been a bit low. Things aren't terrible here, to be honest, just a bit of tough work most of the times, and getting used to the uncertainties in life.

Anyway, better bundle up so I don't freeze to death now!

EDIT: Ok, so I trudged all the way to the station, and "severe delays" apparently means "one train every half hour, with people queuing to both exits of the station because they're not allowed onto the platforms". So I decided to fuck that shit, and by the time I got back, I'd received an email from my supervisor saying that he won't make it in either and nobody should worry if they can't.


current mood: awake

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Monday, January 19th, 2009
11:35 pm - The Matrix: Redux
This is the funniest. animal vid. ever.


Although to be honest, this isn't bad either...


(This post brought to you by Greg's obsession with American politics. :D)

current mood: amused

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Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
6:11 pm - Last post for 2008, methinks!
Hi! I'm not dead - have been meaning to update for ages, but then couldn't be arsed for a variety of reasons. It has been mentioned to me that I have been somewhat remiss in updating you all on my life though, so I figured I should at least make a brief attempt before the year draws to a close.

Bullet points, cause I cannot be arsed to write in full sentences:

  • Christmas: spent in Germany with family and Greg, got pissed off at my Mum a lot and suffered from lack of patience, got struck down with stomach bug and spent Christmas Day unable to keep anything, solid or liquid, down. Saw old schoolfriends though, which was nice, and it was good to see my family again, despite annoyances.

  • Health status: Back pain has much improved - am down to occasional cocodamol usage now, which is a huge relief. Depression vacillates, but have seen a psychiatrist and am due to get longer-term therapy in the new year, which is a relief.

  • Doctor Who Christmas special was not as bad as last year - Morrisey (sp?) and Tennant were awesome, but sadly it as usual suffered from RTD's exuberant overuse of deus ex machina and insane steampunk cybermen robot drama - WTF?

  • Merlin is slashy love of cheesiness, and I ADORE it. You should all watch it, for it is love, despite lacking a bit in plotting.

  • Why is there no Uther/Merlin? ASH slash fans, where are you?

  • panicking about my PhD shall resume next week. Eeep! Have passed animal course though, and now waiting on licence.

End of Year 2008 Meme )

I hope you all have a fantastic start into the new year! ♥

current mood: cold

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Thursday, November 6th, 2008
9:56 am - Bugger this flu.
I left work early on Monday, I took Tuesday off, I came in for all of 2 hours yesterday (to be fair, I also had a Doctor's appointment that took up the morning).

And now I just woke up, having slept through my alarm for 2 whole hours, and I still feel beyond shitty, and have just decided to stay home again and focus on some reading and writing, if I can get my brain to activate at any point.

Immune system, could you please just deal with this?

current mood: aggravated

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9:54 am - Bitter from the Sweet
And man, Prop 8 (and associated laws across other states whose exact titles escape me - mea culpa) passing certainly did put a damper on things.

I am, again, failing at the saying anything coherent about political issues (I swear it's some sort of block), so I shall just leave it at saying that I am very sorry for any of you on my flist - or out there in general - whom this has affected/is going to affect directly. Basic human rights should not be taken away like this, from anyone and it saddens me so much that so many people out there are still so full of hate, and fear that they can't see that.

Which, I suppose, signifies in a way that it's not just all about a big day yesterday undoubtedly was - it's not about ticking a box every 4 years/2 years/electoral cycle of choice. But it's about all of us standing up for what we believe in, and change minds one at a time, by talking to people, in whatever small way we might be able to, by taking responsibility of our beliefs and actions in this way.

I didn't understand that about politics for the longest time. It was this removed entity I could not relate to, but these last 5 years have made me realise how very personal it is, and how deeply it affects all of us. I know this probably sounds stupid, but I was cynical about politics before I even knew it, simply because I'd never approached it the right way - as individuals, and their lives, and not this amorphous system we're in.

And I know without a doubt that you all took your part in changing that for me. So thank you.

(And if this does sound moronic to anyone but me, blame it on the tired, and the flu, and the braindeadedness, plz?)

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Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
8:03 am - It's a new dawn, it's a new day!
Oh you guys.

I woke up not long ago. Greg woke me in the middle of the night to tell me it had been called for Obama, and I could just smile stupidly and tiredly and laugh.

And now I am still smiling stupidly, and I'm so overwhelmingly happy, and I have no clue how all of you over there must be feeling.


Go President Obama!

*squees incoherently*

current mood: giddy

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Tuesday, November 4th, 2008
10:25 pm - *psyched*
I really, really don't want to go to bed, damnit, I want to be awake for this.

Sadly, I've been struck by the flu of doom and have a hospital appointment tomorrow morning (and already took today off with no work whatsoever), so I will need to sleep at some point, and just have to rely on Greg waking me if it's called before I wake up.

There is nothing brilliant or fantastic I can say, other than to thank all of you for being so brilliant and involved with this. I may not live in America, but this affects all of us, all over the world - and we really do need for things to change.

It's been fantastic seeing my flist explode with election posts over the day - here's to tomorrow!

*sits back in nervousness*

current mood: restless

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Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
10:31 pm - I think I'm getting the whole letting sleeping dogs lie thing now... *headdesk*
Yes, have you guessed it? Another reply to my personal message - this time in colour, with stereo-surround sound, and as a public comment on my vid itself!

If anyone is a thief on You Tube, it's you StarCrossedGirl! I have a gut feeling that you never thought about breaking copyright laws concerning Star Trek, Jefferson Airplane & Led Zeppelin owners rights. The You Tube executives have been sent and informed of your nasty letter. If any videos are to be taken down, it will be yours!!!

And now I get to worry that youtube will delete me. Hurrah!

Have posted on [info]vidding to see if anyone can offer advice. Am staying away from the reply button right now, because I don't think anything that could come out would be helpful.

Somebody cheer me up?

current mood: morose

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Sunday, October 19th, 2008
4:35 pm - Okay, I don't even...
The Fuck?

So I sent out the same message to all of the people who'd copied my vid. 2 have so far taken their copies down - and one of them - in fact the one with the highest no. of views - sent me a very nice courteous message, apologising nicely. I replied back in the same vein, since his message actually cheered me up a lot.

And now I get this from one of the others:

Hello StarCrosedGirl or Shadrack or whichever name you may be writing to me under. If you don't remember that you swapped me this video almost a year ago to use on my site. The name Shadrack is still on this video not my own. I never did claim responsibility for this as you have. So you better just let things be.
Also, you cannot possibly claim responsibility to a song written by and sung by the Jefferson Airplane and video images of Star Trek clips. You are the video pirate here not me, by claiming rights to something that you could have never possessed anyway.
You are right about one thing, this same video is on You Tube and other video sites many times by different people, so you better leave me alone.
I am also, an attorney by trade, so if you want to start a swear campaign or continue claiming video and audio rights, I will see you in court.

I don't even have words. Rage. It is obvious that it was this shadrack guy who originally put his little "hehe, this is mine" clip in front of the vid - and that he went around swapping it with people.

Still, that doesn't justify this message. One brief look at our respective profiles would have told this guy that I uploaded this vid earliest and that hence, I am the creator. And in what way shape or form am I claiming rights to the raw music or video by asking for the courtesy to have my creative efforts be attributed to me?

I know I shouldn't be getting this het up about this, but fuck it, I worked on that vid for almost a week.

(And yes, I am fully aware that Fair Use is an incredibly shady area of law still. Which is why I'm completely at a loss of what to do.)

current mood: enraged

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Saturday, October 18th, 2008
10:27 pm - Update on cunting mothercunts, aka plagiarism.
So, my last point about my Star Trek vid being randomly copied onto youtube?

Yeah, it wasn't the only one. There are others: here, here, here, here, here and finally one that seems to have amassed over 12 000 views (and 31 comments), here.

*headdesk* One of the fuckers even edited it to put his own little "This is me, hehe" thing before it - I can't tell who, since several of the others obviously copied it from him.

*gives up*

Humanity, why do you make me want to thwack you hard so often?

current mood: irritated

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Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
10:23 pm - Whoa, I appear to have been plagiarised!
Does that mean I am officially internet-famous now?

As Greg pointed out to me, someone reuploaded a copy of my Star Trek vid "White Rabbit" onto youtube here - and it's exactly that, a pure copy of my vid, without any mention that the person is not the creator or any form of credit.

I am, unsurprisingly, not best pleased about this. However, also at a bit of a loss as to what I can do about it - I have messaged the person on youtube, but I'm not sure it's wise to report the vid as infringing my copyright, since, uhm, technically my vid would be seen as infringing Paramount's copyright by youtube itself, and it might prompt them to take it down.

As such, it would be hugely appreciated if any of you could drop this cunt idiot a line to tell them this isn't on, because I rather doubt my lone message will achieve much. Meh.

(Doing alright otherwise. Still don't have much of a clue as to what I'm supposed to be doing, but, ah well. I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually!)

current mood: annoyed

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Sunday, September 21st, 2008
8:41 pm - *flailing*
Eeep, so I have a meeting with the disability coordinator at 2.30 tomorrow. And I don't have much of an idea of what to say, other than flailing lots and declaring my utter fear of my supervisor. The little fill-in-yourself leaflet they gave me has a section that usefully asks "What could we do to support you?" which, uhm, is kind of my question (only the other way round, of course).

Then on Tuesday, I've got an appointment with my GP, because I've been crashing rather harshly on the mental health front (hence my general absence), and she is super sweet and competent and wanting me to check in at least, even though, quoth "I may not be a psychiatrist or psychologist". Have I mentioned recently that I ♥ my GP?

Wednesday morning it's time for the neurosurgical consult, followed by Uni registration, Thursday physio, Friday introduction to the graduate department, and I guess the week after I start my PhD properly? Not like anyone has told me. *rolls eyes*

It would also be rather lovely if someone could inform me as to how the hell my scholarship is going to be paid, because clearly this is not high on their list of priorities either. (Yes, I have prodded before.)

And I have to find some articles about MS that don't consist of strung-together mentions of 10,000 mediators and factors, because the book I currently have is both too in-depth and too broad at the same time, which is breaking my head and making me feel utterly unqualified.

In happier news, we've had [info]fidgetknickers and [info]calyxess visiting, which was lovely even though I failed majorly as a host due to being too stressed out in general; and soon there shall be a [info]tobymalfoy in da house.

Oh, and I cut my right index finger quite deeply on a can whilst washing up. That's what you get for doing your bit with the recycling, I suppose?

Just, you know, in case anybody was interested. :P

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Saturday, September 6th, 2008
7:04 pm - Oh, the joys of writing.
So what on earth do you do if your character has developed an unhealthy fascination with the word "oh"?

We've had linker!oh (alright if not overused, which it appears to be, damnit), genuinely!surprised!oh, sarcastic!oh, confuzzled!overwhelmed!oh, and now he insists on thinking erotic!oh thoughts.


current mood: exasperated

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Monday, August 25th, 2008
3:04 pm - FIC: Vinculum, Ten/Methos
TITLE: Vinculum
FANDOM: Highlander/Doctor Who
PAIRING: Methos/Ten, with heavy background Duncan/Methos
LENGTH: 10,385 words
SUMMARY: You didn't really think that Methos disappeared for that long after "Archangel" because he honestly didn't give a damn, did you?
DISCLAIMER: Neither Ten nor Methos belong to me, more's the pity. I have however, been blessed by their creation, so I suppose I can't complain too much.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This fic derived entirely from my eternal frustration of not finding any Methos/Ten on the intarwebs. Honestly fandom, what's wrong with you? It turned out more angsty than smutty in the end, but that's alright - I fully admit that Methos/Ten is not a pairing that would be all about the fluffy bunnies.
Huge thanks for betaing and helpful comments go to [info]chinawolf, [info]kesomon, [info]petulans (only he would leave beta comments incorporating mathematical equations!) and [info]slashkilter. ♥

Vinculum )

current mood: accomplished

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Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
10:12 pm - Wow, what a *brilliant* day!
Feel my sarcasm, feel it!

So I finally got the MRI results today (after seeing my GP about them on Monday, and finding out that apparently they had got lost somewhere along the way).

I not only have one slipped disk, my friends, no, I have two! (That'd be Bandscheibenvorfall for you Germans.)

I not only have one nerve root impacted, no, I have two compressed nerves exciting my spine! Also, the bilateral foraminal stenosis wants to say hi and make the party even better.

As my GP said: "I am not surprised you have been in agony."

So I'm being referred for a surgical consult to get a second opinion - on the one hand I haven't started my physio yet properly, so I suppose there's hope in that; on the other hand, in 90% of cases this sort of thing resolves itself with painkillers within 6 weeks (which have been well exceeded) and most of the remaining 10% end up having to have surgery. And hey, who doesn't want spinal surgery?

I am twenty-fucking-four years old. My spine should not be crumbling to bits. I am supposed to start my fucking PhD in less than two months. With the NHS being as it is, it'll be a miracle if I've actually seen my surgical consult by that time.

I honestly don't know why I still fucking bother, sometimes.

current mood: distressed

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Monday, August 11th, 2008
8:01 am - As DailyKos says: "This needs to go viral"

Code for posting into LJ:

To post it somewhere other than LJ, you'll probably want to just use the Youtube default "embed" code it gives you on the video's page over there.

current mood: tired

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Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
6:28 pm - Rage London, Rage!
So I come out of the tube station - which is via a little tunnel that connects the high street to the side I'm going out of...

And there is a metal detector, with three policemen standing there and searching people. The detector of course beeps with every person who goes through, because it picks up keys, etc etc.

The real fucking thing that takes the fucking cake though? There were, of course, only searching black and Asian people, predominantly guys - oh, and the odd alternatively dressed person. Like the girl who was complaining to the police officer about it - who of course responded that they obviously couldn't search everybody, so that made it reasonable. Also, he was very busy, you know, so she could go to the police station if she felt that strongly about it.

Because yeah, profiling has been demonstrated to be such a useful thing in this kind of situation. Alienating ethnic minorities in this manner, is going to improve things so much, naturally. It's not like, you know, someone actually carrying a knife couldn't run off, catch a bus to the next tube station 5-10 mins away and thus AVOID BEING CAUGHT.

I called [info]kazzik to rant about it, and whilst doing so, was approached by an Asian woman, who said she completely agreed with me, and wanted to thank me for feeling this way. We walked towards home most of the way and ranted about the whole stupid business - and about how what is really needed to deal with the increase in knife crime and antisocial behaviour? Is to give young people alternatives and education, for fuck's sake.

Apparently she works for a housing office dealing with lots of council estates, where kids are stopped from kicking a ball around because it's a nuisance, and she has seen tons of community centres shutting down over the past few years due to lack of funds.

But money for schemes that ultimately do nothing but piss off those people you're trying to get away from crime and gang culture? Ah, snip, that's no problem. After all, it's so very visible and makes for such great PR to demonstrate you're really taking the problem seriously.

Fucking fuckhats.

UK, your civil liberties are PASTEDE ON YAY!

(In completely unrelated and much much much more squeeful news, CONGRATS to [info]slashkilter. You rock, wifey!)

current mood: enraged

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Tuesday, July 29th, 2008
11:24 pm - Stratford-upon-Avon: Part II
Okay, so I lied. I was completely shattered after work yesterday, so I ended up going to bed at 9.30. O_O Also, apparently Steve has gone on holiday without, uhm, telling me of this - he said he'd be gone Friday, but he also wasn't in yesterday or today, which I suppose means I can feel less guilty for messing about? Yay!

Anyway, Stratford! This time, not about the play, but about HOW STRATFORD IS LOVE. )

Then, after the Friday performance, my Curse decided to kick in. )

But Stratford's awesomeness saves the day! )

And then it was sadly time for Greg and I to head back, and there were drunk, rude and annoying German tourists on the tube back who bitched about me in German even though I'd briefly spoken to one of them in GERMAN. Because clearly I don't know who Barack Obama is even though I asked my boyfriend to explain how long he was in the UK for when you asked, even though you did this after: a) elbowing me when you slump into the seat next to me without apologising, b) being obnoxiously loud and c) staring sideways at my newspaper in a really obvious and incredibly rude manner that I know isn't common practise in Germany.

But you know what? I don't even care about that anymore now, because the happy memories of Stratford and its loveliness are making me feel a little bit glowy. :)

current mood: cheerful

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Sunday, July 27th, 2008
11:35 pm - Stratford-upon-Avon: Hamlet
We got back yesterday night after 3 lovely days and two nights in Stratford and I feel I should get some reactions down so I can remember it properly. I suspect pictures will follow at some point.

Obviously, spoilers for direction/setting etc of the play.

Squeefully superficial fangirly observations first, to get them out of the way. )

Slightly more coherent notes on individual performances and the play as a whole. )

Oh right, basically I loved everything. It was fantastic. :D :D

Stage-dooring and bitching about the Insanity of some Fangirls )

Wow, this got long. More on Stratford in general and HOW IT IS LOVE tomorrow, I think. :)

current mood: chipper

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Monday, July 21st, 2008
7:39 am - FIC: Exposure, whee, my first porn!
TITLE: Exposure
FANDOM: Highlander
PAIRING: Duncan/Methos
LENGTH: 9754 words
SUMMARY: When Duncan comes across some unexpected photographs, he suddenly sees things a bit differently...
DISCLAIMER: If I had a Methos, he'd be building me a treehouse in the Caribbean right now. (According to him, it'd be fun, and he's ace at building treehouses. What?)
WARNINGS: Here be explicit slash, ie male/male sex, in case you hadn't gathered that yet. Also: Rimming; kind of but not really virgin-to-gay-sex!Duncan (you'll see) and some schmoopiness that managed to seep in.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This was supposed to be a short PWP, inspired by a reference [info]pat_t made to another fic she was looking for (and which I'd never heard of). But then Duncan decided to be dense and have Issues (with a capital I), and Methos quite enjoyed teasing him for a bit. I've never before understood why some authors get annoyed with their characters because they don't do as they're told. Now I do. *facepalms* It's still mostly a PWP (although I suppose it could also be filed under "First Time"), but it definitely isn't short anymore.
Huge thanks to [info]chinawolf for an excellent beta and pointing out incongruities, [info]slashkilter for giving this a second once-over (does that make you a gamma? :P), and [info]kazzik for encouragement and listening to me ramble on incessantly about my Methos-muse. I ♥ you girls.

Exposure )

current mood: accomplished

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